Of Grasses and Dreams...

25th March
The Grass is always greener on the other side, well it sure couldn’t have been more worse than the one I was dwelling on. It was brown. It wasn’t always that way though. When I started out, it was as green as a person with envy. But post 7-8 months and a severe battering of aspirations meted out through consistent rejections, the sheen of my green side seems to have worn off. Now I’m turning a new leaf – the leaf of Work Experience. The one step in my ladder I skipped while I was dwelling with my previous leaf i.e., an MBA degree.
It’s always been exciting, you know, turning a new leaf. It gives you this sense of unexpectedness, anticipation and something that is most typical of me – pipe dreams of reaching the highest echelons of what the new venture has to possibly offer. I feel like a traveller at the start of his journey dreaming and visualising the different lands he’s going to visit, contemplating on the various challenges he’s going to face and feeling an uneasy restlessness to start out right away. I’ve never worked in my life, never felt the joy of the first self earned rupee (well I have won bets and have been particularly lucky at gambling but this is something different). And to think that my first job would be doing something I’ve been doing since primary school makes this leaf I’ve turned to even greener. Writing, it’s something I’ve done all my life. When I’ve felt alone (I was the only child of my parents), when I’ve fallen for a girl, when I’ve been dejected, nostalgic, or plain lazy. It’s always been my ticket away from the big bad world, a place where I contemplate and rejuvenate myself. It’s my dope alright.
I’m celebrating today. A quiet recognition to a new phase in my life. A celebration for lost causes and new horizons, the beginning of a new chapter. I’ve gotten over the disappointment of not getting a Management seat in any of the prestigious B-Schools of India. Gotten over the disappointment but not the dream. I’m going back much wiser and stronger than I was. Seeing success from such close quarters I now know even more about what is required to get to that next level. My dreams are the same, but it just seems like I need to make a few important pit stops before I get to where I’m headed. And work experience is definitely one of them. And what better way to start from, than writing – creative writing.
Aki…
Species: Homo sapiens
Class: Copius Writerous